To Whom it May Concern

I feel I need to seek answers, why, I know not. I feel so "bored", like, not a soul can understand how I feel. Funny thing, is I choose to be like this, not necessarily, barely, I just don't have any folk like me to spend time with. Anyways, I don't hold grudges forever, or for a minute for that matter, lately my thoughts and feelings in words have all been scattered, like scrabbled eggs served off the platter. I guess this helps keeps me sane, just kidding. I'm just being strong, I wish not to revert back to old ways, like the old days, starring in old "plays", I'd rather be this way if it keeps me outta those days. I mean, it's easy to party hard like Paris, almost every one's doing it, she's just not scared when it comes to the public viewing it. I mean, I think about it, if everyone knew what y'all do, y'all would probably be running like they all do. As long as they don't know, you're comfortable. I have a dilemma trying to understand that manner. That's why I'm good like this, I keep it real like this. I did my thing, but I can still do my thing, but what I'll do if I do my thing, is my thing. Anyways, what you think about this, I'm really not concerned.

Alone

Still calm, a sense that whatever happens, it's still all good. Haven't had a peace like this ever in my life. I like it, cherish and love it, not much could be above this. I'm telling you, I've been through life's whirlwinds and then some, so if another unplanned ride comes along I can handle that. No matter what happens, that's how I feel. Especially when you've done all you can do, don't beat yourself up, lie in a slump, because I'm still alive trying not to fall off the ride, I'll make it to the other side. Even if I am alone, I mean, I am alone, I been alone, it's so cold when you're alone, I know, but I was never alone when I was alone, I know that much. I'm just glad this world doesn't have me blind anymore, tired from the real world, yep, so I'm living and being how I want it in the new world. Nothing can change if there "ain't" no revolution, still got the worst pollution, what we proving? Don't come running to me because you got bit by the real world, besides I been told y'all, remember, I been bored y'all, well now you can handle it all. Really, cold is hot, I'm hot, so I'm cold, but cold is alone, but it's not alone because cold is hot and hot is not alone...leave me alone.

It's about that time

Tiffany's Legacy Engagement Ring

I've found that special someone...right? No, I'm not asking, I'm telling...no hesitation. I really do feel strong about our relationship and we both have great communication with one another. So we talk about how we feel and are on point. Anyways, this is the ring that my baby wants and I'm going to get it for her. If anyone has any suggestions or advice about buying a ring let me know. If you've been through this before and want to give me some head's up, feel free. Anyways, that's about it.

Again I say, "Neither blood nor water flows deeper than LOVE!"

I can't fathom the fact that these fake philosophers of potent pathetic plutonic prophesizing try nothing but demise and minimizing, the minds of others. I'm talking about these, closer than I’m making it sound, so-called relations, really simulations, labeling me the devil, why, for what, because I smile too much, love the Lord too much, want to converse and not argue? It's ridiculous in this place, a disgrace, feel like I'm another race. Fantastic not the focus with your frivolous and fictional findings of my future like you know my fate. Trying to condemn what you can't command, because my pass consist of a conviction, try to make my destiny's predictions, it's sickening and not right. It's evident the elements that are operating are eminent, leave plenty of evidence, only if they would "Open their eyes" they'd be on point with their wives instead of thinking their old so automatically wise. With the head there's no compromise, how can the head be the head if there is no head, call me dead, say I won't make it. The other does for your glory, I do for God's glory, because it really doesn't matter what you think, unless you're emitting a positive effect, but with you there's never optimistic only oppressive, coercive not suggestive, which would I be impressed with? She's a blessing, really helped me learn my lesson, because she told me the Lord will forgive me, and the other she never left me, stood by me, even cried with me. No regret, since I repent and replaced and reinvented my retrospect, now there's only more I expect, big things like a big king. You see, negativity swims around me daily like an ocean of sharks, life seems in danger for that God is no stranger. I don't understand your ways, but I understand that I understand your ways, so at least when we part ways, it can just be what I expected before, what I have now, and what I'll have later, better days. With all that you’ve said, always said, and with what’s said, I can still say… I truly love you, and that’s real!

She Is... Irreplaceable

I'm lucky, but not even luck, it's God's spiritual lift, for such a great gift. "One in a Million", no chameleon, got me thinkin’ family and children. This isn't just a song, SHE IS irreplaceable, the way love's got me feeling I want it to be inescapable, traceable back to two paths crossing and meeting at an intersection, at the same time, you have to collide or comply to one another if it’s going to work and you acknowledged so that's when I saw promise. A smile evil couldn't even tarnish, love it has to harness...in us, no lust, beautiful is she so passionate I must be. So I made my vow, desire and determination dropped the male ego, tryin’ to lead by example for my real people, don't conclude, I'm not above only equal. She showed me a preview, from first look I was hooked, like Oprah's Book Club book. And if you know what I mean, you know what I mean; this is real but still a dream. You have yours but this is my fantasy, rolling with a true woman that's classy and keeps it fancy, see, I love love, and I love everything, from your beautiful eyes, cute nose, sweet mouth, down to your mood swings that mean nothing to me compared to what your down-to-earth personality brings, to the table no fable, true story like Cain & Able, and I'm able, to remain faithful, all the days of my life as long as I can call you my wife…even if this isn’t the time or life.

To me...

..It's not about a religion, but about a relationship. I try to put God first in all that I do. The scripture says, "Love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and lean not unto thy own understanding. Acknowledge him in all thy ways and he shall direct thy paths." That's simply what I'm trying to do, because it's not about us it's about God. I don't live in this world. What do I mean? I mean, I try not to get caught up in the hype, the worldly things of this life, things that intrigue us more than this relationship I have with God. You see, now I have true meaning, like John 9:25. The picture which was once blurred is now crystal clear, the snapshot that wasn't clear is now a big picture...simply put, things make much more sense. The things I used to do have me baffled now, a true enigma like, "was that really me?" But that was then, this is now, and now I have a chance to move and I'm going to give it all to God! I just want to be made whole, I know I'm probably no where near his completion that he has in store for me but at least I'm on my way and that's what keeps me happy, and that's the happiness I will continue to pursue.

Blood is Thicker Than Water?

Family is who I say it is. Biological, but illogical. Your blood but show me no love. I pray for you, listen to the words I say to you, wrote it in a letter because your mouth won't allow me to say much to you. The negativity you've been emitting since my birth it's a miracle I'm not mentally disturbed. The miracle worker my cries were heard, it’s him I serve. The tongue has the power of life and death, change your ways before your last breath, that's why I'm trying to live right every second you never know when you'll take that last step. When you bark I humble myself, when you bite I don't crumble myself, I'm not weak, you put me into it, I admit I followed bad influences, but the important thing is I've been through it. True story, family first, but just because you helped shape me doesn't mean you created me. I'm made for God's purpose, want to use your sons to glorify you, but this one will only glorify God. Notice there's no negativity here, I pray you get there, because I just want to be made whole better than I am now. A degree doesn't define me, but it will help me make it in this world. Money doesn't make me, but with God I'm already rich, rethink your spirit because I really can't feel it. Still one of the realest, let out all feelings, because to me it's not about what others think, blinded by the snapshot of a picture they see. Blood is thicker than water... but it can't flow deeper than love!