To Whom it May Concern

I feel I need to seek answers, why, I know not. I feel so "bored", like, not a soul can understand how I feel. Funny thing, is I choose to be like this, not necessarily, barely, I just don't have any folk like me to spend time with. Anyways, I don't hold grudges forever, or for a minute for that matter, lately my thoughts and feelings in words have all been scattered, like scrabbled eggs served off the platter. I guess this helps keeps me sane, just kidding. I'm just being strong, I wish not to revert back to old ways, like the old days, starring in old "plays", I'd rather be this way if it keeps me outta those days. I mean, it's easy to party hard like Paris, almost every one's doing it, she's just not scared when it comes to the public viewing it. I mean, I think about it, if everyone knew what y'all do, y'all would probably be running like they all do. As long as they don't know, you're comfortable. I have a dilemma trying to understand that manner. That's why I'm good like this, I keep it real like this. I did my thing, but I can still do my thing, but what I'll do if I do my thing, is my thing. Anyways, what you think about this, I'm really not concerned.

Alone

Still calm, a sense that whatever happens, it's still all good. Haven't had a peace like this ever in my life. I like it, cherish and love it, not much could be above this. I'm telling you, I've been through life's whirlwinds and then some, so if another unplanned ride comes along I can handle that. No matter what happens, that's how I feel. Especially when you've done all you can do, don't beat yourself up, lie in a slump, because I'm still alive trying not to fall off the ride, I'll make it to the other side. Even if I am alone, I mean, I am alone, I been alone, it's so cold when you're alone, I know, but I was never alone when I was alone, I know that much. I'm just glad this world doesn't have me blind anymore, tired from the real world, yep, so I'm living and being how I want it in the new world. Nothing can change if there "ain't" no revolution, still got the worst pollution, what we proving? Don't come running to me because you got bit by the real world, besides I been told y'all, remember, I been bored y'all, well now you can handle it all. Really, cold is hot, I'm hot, so I'm cold, but cold is alone, but it's not alone because cold is hot and hot is not alone...leave me alone.